Great Afternoon World,
Well its Saturday. I'm in bed, with my cat, enjoying some KLoveRadio , which always uplifts my spirits when ever I tune in. and happily here blogging away. Trying to be more positive than ever. I say that because last weekend I wasn't feeling too good and I really don't want to feel like that. But I been praying, having my alone time and most of all having the Faith I need to, in God. Because only He knows what's the purpose of all this. So today, I'm happily enjoying the little extras that life has for me. NYC your cold today but inside my heart is all cozy. :-)
My mind is all over the place now so I'll try and type in a way to organize what I am trying to project to you. My Thanksgiving went well. My family from LI came to my place and it was a very well spent day. I got up early, had my coffee of course. Made sure I called my silly friend before his family went to his house. Always good to hear his voice. But happier to know that he's home and calls can be made when ever. (he knows, he knows lol) I saw my little cousins, which aren't so little anymore. But thats what life is about growing up. Friday, no work woohoo...and those left overs were the best!! But today I'm just relaxing. After all the holiday crazy and the one coming up (Christmas) I need this alone time. Well not so alone, my kitty is with me.
This month has been sorta interesting. I actually, am still, realizing that I have forgiven a certain someone who hurt me in the past. Now I'm not talking about 5th grade things, adult stuff. But as I'm here, sitting down, I think... no what I actually mean to say is that I feel the Forgiveness. The forgiveness of whatever has happened in life at that time. We all know no one is perfect and within all the commotion we should accept those we love the way they are. But when that person is just too much then something should change. So when I decided to stop and walk away, with tears and pain, I left. I don't regret anything because at that time I knew that with love in my heart I was capable of loving someone with all their flaws AND capable of walking away for myself. But now, after many years I'm feeling that my heart, my life is putting the pieces back together. And no not back to what it was because you can't glue something back without the cracks. But feeling happier, free. Free from that dark memory. Making room for new things, like more positive thoughts. More faithfulness and quotes. Yes, if you knew me personally you would agree, I'm a quote freak, lol.
But what lead me here is a particular person. Whom by time he will realize he had more of an impact on me that what I actually realized. I mean, a human body can hold so much that when its time to start again...it does. It does slighlty different but it does. And if this particular person has been through the worst being where he was, then it shows me that if he can do it then I can also. Not exactly doing his same steps but moving on. Having to do better because there are people who wants you to be better. So now I feel like I'm rambling but I do hope you all know what I am trying to say.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that life has so many wonderful things that we need to stop and enjoy. Sounds to oridinary but it actually means alot. For instance, I have Instagram and I mostly post quotes. And wow, I been getting some nice feedback and I'm happy to know other people agree to what I post. While others are lost, I post something for them and they like or comment on it, shows me there are people out there paying attention to your words. And that is why I am ALWAYS careful with the words I say to others. You never know who may need the extra encouragement. I love my instagram friends. Some may be on the wrong wrong road but I do know they will find their way. Girls, we all find our way. Trust me. I may be older but that only shows you that I do understand and know there is a better road to jump into. *hugs to them all*
Ok, so Christmas is coming. Love the holiday cheers and movies. But most of all grateful that my Faith in God keeps growing. Everyday I have reason to why I should continue to be who I am. To why I keep having high hopes in my silly friend (he knows), in my kid, my mom and the growing relationship my sister and I are having. With all the positive why shouldn't my Faith keep growing. Everything happens for a reason and I should be looking at a better tomorrow by accepting today and its little extras. I mean, if we don't stop and accept , thank or learn from the little extra things in life then what will the journey conrtuct of. hmmm, well I think thats a totally entire blog.
Thank you so much for reading this far. Sorry for any typos or misunderstanding. Any questions just ask, And remember to follow my MY TWITTER account to get an everyday update. So be safe everyone.
xoxo
-SweetManhattnGirl-
P.S. If your surrounded by sadness, be the change. Get up and get Happy. So something silly. Even if your surrounded by sadness, negative or nonsense, Be the change. You don't have to jump because everyone else is, skip around and you'll be amazed of how many people will follow you.
Hello World,
Such a beautiful week I been having, to come home and enjoy some chocolate. Yep, I can enjoy it because I'm finally losing the weight I been wanting to. I'm actually losing it pretty fast and I don't think that's too healthy. But I'm working on it.
Many of the bloggers talk about very interesting things but of what I remember my blog is basically about myself...and everything else. Yea, I don't think I can just talk about one topic here. But my life has been making major changes. As a mom, I have a teen and that pretty sums it up to those who understands. Hahaha. But I know for sure, we going to be alright. I have Faith in God that our future is what we can handle. My teen is a pretty smart one too. Just the other day we had teacher conference and she actually told me how it will go down. I listened and just kept walking. Funny thing is that, I was thinking she failed a class but no, she passed all of them. Smart kid!
My Faith has been growing. By Faith I mean, I still believe in God. I now listen to Christian Music on the radio. I LOVE that radio station. ( KLove Radio ) This station has helped me alot. And I mean alot. Everytime I feel that I am going to the negative side, I turn to this station and listen, tweet and instagram about them. Now I'm blogging about them. I really hope this station stays for the very longest time because the stories I have heard of so many people, the help they get by just tuning in. I mean, I for one, am so glad that God has blessed me to have the heart and energy (and guides my thoughts & words) to talk to strangers and some friends about their personal life, about private situations and I help them. No, I'm not a counselor YET but I do believe God has blessed me to help from my heart. I know what your thinking...'The strongest usually suffer the most'. Well it could be true, just that like I said, I'm better at helping others. It's more of I love helping others but its hard to help myself. I know some of you understand this.
Well when I do feel down and there has been times, my thoughts are not in the right path, the song that has popped into this station 3 times has been 'Don't Give Up' By Calling Glory . Talk about having Faith!!!! WOW!!! I surely opened more of my heart to God because is like He directly answered me right there and then. Now, I know there are many of us out there that received beautiful messages from Him (thorugh this station) and I want to finally say it here and outloud that I get them too.
I have found an answer also. I know that since I help my friends with certain things, and up to where my arms can reach... I have Faith in God to bless me with a great friend also. Someone that also, is careful with his/her words with me, someone who thinks before he/she speaks to me...But then something told me that why am I asking for one when I already have God for that. That I should help without expecting anything back but be HAPPY BECAUSE I HAVE HELPED. I should have a good nights sleep when I brighten someone else's day...should it be like that? Yes! it should. because thats the way I am and I know God has his purpose for me to be this way. I look at the past relationship and I think to myself with all that has happened I should be lost in this world. To be honest, I'm not too lost. I can look around and feel the Faith. I can feel the Faith growing. And by just typing it, I can feel it growing more, little by little. I feel content, happy and secure that God has me where He wants me to be. Each day, I try my very best to show others that they are thought of, loved and that I am here to talk. Even if they don't want to talk, I can just be there. Sometimes, without words being exchanged, and staring at the sky or at the TV...helps.
I hope that somehow, who ever reads this knows that there's someone out there to hear you out, without judgement and just be a friend. But to know if its real, Listen to God and He will answer you. I think its best to search for God and He will bring you that special friend on your darkest hour. Listen carefully because good people still exist. Don't hurt them but listen to what God is saying. Feel his answer in your heart. when your on your lowest point, God is testing your Faith and when you need it most, that friend will be around. But don't get me wrong, they are not there for you only. You also have do to your part as a friend as well. I mean thats the best thank you, you can give for God having your back when you needed the most. Leave the negative and those who bring them to you in the past. Appreciate the healthy care, love and sincere heart God has brought near you in a human form.
Ok, so friends, strangers...world...I'm glad you read this far and I didn't bore you. I would keep typing but I need to wake uo early for work. I'm happy to also say a GREAT FRIEND of mine has come back home. And because of him I have my Faith growing. I see him and my heart gets excited because he's alive, home and breathing. All because God has a great purpose for him to keep moving forward. And if he one day reads this, I hope he knows that he will ALWAYS have a special place in my heart. That I will always try my best to understand him and his ways and help in what I can. And when I say always, I mean as long as God permits, I'll be around.
Have a great night!!!
xoxo
-sweetmanhattangirl-
