Worth

I want to make it clear first before I start making this post, I am not judging and I understand different people, different situations. So I am sticking with one situation about a mother with kids and love.
I want to know what motivates each and every one of you? Every single one of you has a different reason to be where you are. A different thing that helps you move forward, or a special someone that helps you become a better person. Someone that makes you want to do better.

For instance, my daughter is my reason to make myself get up in the morning and work and be happy, and smile even though I don't want to but I do. She may not realize it now but she is my reason for me to stand up for myself, to who ever it is in front of me. Is not that I would disrespect anyone in a bad way but in a good manner I would. For her...I would.

A few years back I found myself very unhappy with the way I was handling things. I mean, I was thinking I was too "soft" on certain situations in my life. But any other way, I would have probably ended up in jail. Which I am not, thank God. So from everyday thinking and thinking and sadness and more sadness and thinking...yes it keeps going and going, One day, I got tired. literally, i got tired of all the bullshit that I realized I was unhappy because I let some insufficient human take control of me in ways that they probably didn't even know they had that power. Yes, we humans can control others emotions thats why we get mad or angry or cry. but that's another post.
So, yea I got tired of all the nonsence that this person was putting me into. I got up one day and said to myself. YA! (in spanish) I felt a relief. I fell myself with a smile and happy, and not caring for what I had lost but what I actually was gaining back and more. I began to look at things very differently, I began to appreciate rain, the thunder, the sun's heat, the babies cry, the older ladies jokes, hahahaha.
I was turning into a person that i felt more comfortable in. a person whom I saw myself very happy. And I did it for my daughter. So she can see me happy, so she can be happy.

Now my question to certain moms out there, why are you risking your emotions, your love, your time with a man that is not with you? You have beautiful kids, they look up to you, you have a home, you have a family and he probably has his own. But your wasting your time with a man that doesn't belong to you. So why make yourself sad, depressed and let your kids see this. You put this information everywhere and your suppose to be working for your family. But instead, your paying attention to a man that is not worth your time.

(to be continued) *going to be with my family :-)*
update:

Hello again world,
So why the negative pick? Why the wasting your time in thinking about a man that you know won't be there for you. I mean, I know once love is in and no one is there to give it back, it hurts. I been there. But how about making yourself think of other things, or how about making yourself realize that you have kid(s) and they need you more. Some of us mothers need a man next to them to feel wanted but if you take care of your kids, you'll probably meet someone along the way.
Example, a mom of beautiful kids living with her family (including spouse) is inlove with another man. Wait, so after years of being with him and acting like he's the one...out of now where comes out a stranger your inlove with. Why? Why were your eyes, heart, and attention spam somewhere other than you spouse and your children? I mean you can look but your heart should have been filled with your kids love enough to surpass that.
My friends, strangers, world, and those who probably feel offended, I am sorry if I seem to harsh but it's my opinion and you have yours. Your welcome to reply...But I as a mom, who seen enough and probably will see more, think how can a mom just put herself out there and not care of what the world will say to her own children. I think I will leave this like this. I mean the topic, not the situation because I don't control that. Hopefully someone outthere understand what I am saying.

Till next post my friends,
*kiss kiss*

Saturday Afternoon

Just enjoying this beautiful cold day at home. Hearing some bachata music. Glad to find some new repies to my blog. Haven't updated enough since my daughter isn't feeling too good and I been working. But all is well. Last night I went out with some friends, a good-bye get together and it was nice. I don't go out alot but I had a great time. Good to know there are good friends out there. I say this because I haven't had the luck to meet people who I can fully trust and call friend.

Let's see what this weekends brings us and I will be back here later!

*kiss kiss*

She is the reason!

How can someone who's your half size be so into your heart that sometimes you cry because your too overwhelmed. To be honest here, I had my beautiful daughter at 15 years old. When I came home I received a phone call from 2 wonderful friends. I remember it was Cynthia and Yesenia. They had called because it was my birthday, yes my 16th birthday. After they wished me the best, I told them I had just stepped in because I had given birth. I heard screams and that right there I felt so happy to have them a phone call away. I have them as friends in facebook and they are doing well, thank God!
After that happy call, I realized that I had a little body waiting for me in the hospital. she couldn't come home with me right away but I did go to her every single day, all day long. It was my birthday and for the very first time I didn't care if it was or if I needed to rest because I just pushes naturally a 7pound 2ounces baby. For me she was so petite, I was scared to even drop her but I got the hang of it.


My daughter came home a week later, nervous, happy and all comotions of feelings came in me. I went to school full time and straight home to play with my daughter. Sometimes in the weekends when she was asleep, I missed her but I was home with her. Is like I became obsess with her that I would check on her every second. If she went to sleep I made sure to do my homework right next to her. Any sudden move, i looked at her to she if she was ok. I didn't mind that I stayed home while my friends went out. i mean I did get to go to some parties but what I really wanted was to stay home. And the mayority of the time, I did stay home.


Before I got pregnant my life was revolved into a man who loved me very much. a man who taught me alot and show me the way life is outthere. I thank him very much because with his help also, my parents can rest assure that my intentions for our life are good. This man is my daughter's father. I am not with him now but he is around. But after my daughter came in this world, I see it as a blessing for God, my thoughts, my reasons, my life has been changed for the better. Of course like everyone else, we go through ups and doens but I love my life as it is. I am happy to say that my reason is her. I wake up because of her, I come home because of my little angel, I work for her, I am more social because with my daughter I have to be. I don't regret any part of my steps I have taken. Any negative things will just balance our world.
So I did finished highschool, got my original degree and went to college. Can you believe that my daughter's first day of kindergarden was my first day of class in college? She was nervous and I told her that it was my first day too. And I saw a relieve in her eyes. Knowing that she is not alone helped her alot and wasn't too nervous herself. I finished college and my daughter was a great student. No complaints, good grades and all. I am thankful for that. I remember when we use to play teacher and I would teach her the colors, numbers, ABC's and once in school, she was advance. LOVE IT!!


So now, at this instant, she has grown into a beautiful teenager. I am scared and confused sometimes. Because I have heard teens think parents are out there to get them. WOW! My daughter has a strong backbone to back up every little argument to be quite...quite true. I see this as a journey that we both look back and laugh with a phew! we made it. :-)


I am trying my best to let her go in certains ways but I still see her as a baby. I think we parents will see our children as babies even when they reach their adulthood. Let me just not say it too loud before my kid yells "I'm not a baby".


My life, my reason, other then God and my faith, is my daughter. I had her as a teen and seeing her this big has made me feel that we can make it. Because we are. I rarely think if she didn't exist what I would be doing. But when I do, I can't think or see myself anywhere. So when I peek to see her sleeping, I am at ease that she is here, next to me and without barely knowing that I have become a better human being because and for her. I am Christian mom, sister and daughter...I don't judge like I use to and I don't hold grudges. What ever has been done to me in the past has been forgiven but the lesson will not be forgotten. For her, that is my reason, I will keep growing.


I will keep growing in Faith, with God guiding us.
*kiss kiss*

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Hello World,

It's 10pm and I am here. Many things have crossed my mind in what to be a main focus for my blog. But guess what, I am going to write mostly about everything, what has happened throught the day, things I over heard. YES!!! Secretos!! And other things.

For instance, when I was 13 years old, I basically didn't ask for much. I think I was still in the "what am I wearing" or "can I get the more than $1 ice cream". LOL. If your confused in where am I headed with this..well I have a 13 year old and she basically wants to do more things than I wanted when I was her age. Sleep overs? NOPE! I live in the city and many things happen in the city. Good...and bad. So I said NO from the very beginning. Now of course the why's and pleases came in but I was strong. Not strong enough though because we parents somethings feel bad in saying no but how else will our children learn if we say yes to everything?

I know alot of parents want to give everything they didn't have when they were younger but think about it. If you say yes all the time, do you think that your community will also say yes to everything? No. So why not teach the child in hearing a "no" here and there. I mean of course we all need to also explain why no's but also why the yes's.

Sometimes I think I am too hard on my kid but c'mon, we live in NYC and the prettieness also comes with a dark side. I love nyc. I was born and raised here, I have my issues, like everyone else and I think my mom did a good job in raising me. So why not try to do the same thing with my kid. So I am hard on her because the world, not only in nyc, will have a darkside. And we need to also teach our kids that since there are nice people out there, there are negative people. But that's where the questions start and we need to teach them good values. As in whether the world goes left, you can stay on the right side. I know is hard and most of the parents are in denial (next blog) about teaching them in left and right. And I am not talking about out left and right hands...or sides. But that's another blog.

So, yes I am hard on my kid because I am a single mom (along with her grandparents and aunts) and I need to show her rough side but also sweet gentle mom. I have been getting positive feedback from other mothers and I thank them so much because ummmm...yea I was 15 when I had my kid and wowzers!! thats another blog i may have to dedicate on. :-)
I thank them very much because growing up with my daughter was hard but I LOVED it!!! because I was myself and her, we played alot and just basically enjoyed lide. For now, at this time I can happily say that my teen life as a mom was marvelous and no I don't agree with teens having kids.
Opppppssss. I got lost in the track, I thank those moms who say I am doing a good job in raising my daughter. Now, who gets a good compliment on that? I haven't heard alot of moms out there saying they do so I appreciate this specific mom. and where ever she is, I am here for her!!

So what's new? My teen wanting to go out more. My teen asking why everything no. My teen getting on my nerves but I do just look at her and am so proud that she has a voice of her own. Hopefully one day that voice can change lives to the better.

I think I will stop typing now. And next topic will probabSoly in something about in denial. Thanks for reading this far and enjoy your night!!

-sweetmanhattangirl-
*kiss kiss*

Welcome...

Hello everyone,

Just wanted to welcome you to my blog. I am new to this but will try my very best to update every day. so far a few words about me...
A mother of teen.
Work and school.
Quiet, Strong and happy.
I don't need to repeat my yes or no's.
Creativity, friendships, faith and family.
Love, sunflowers, rain, snow, barks and birds I cherish.
New friendships, new ideas, new advice, new rode.

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Thanks!!
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