We all go through alot of situations in life. That is why we have to lift each other up, because while we down...and push others down. Then that makes two of us. Now imagine everyone doing that, the world would not be a great place to live, right? Well some of us already think that. That's because we are pushing others down. If you know how that feels why would we want that emotionall state to someone else?
I know it hurts, in what ever your going through but life does have its ups & downs. It does have greatness in it. We have to choose to see it. Even during the storms, you have to close your eyes, listen to your heart and go beyond the negative part. Listen to why your there, understand to the lesson its trying to teach you and somehow in your heart, keep going. It might seem to dark but you have to keep going. Don't be scared of that darkness. It has nothing to do with you, all your doing is walking by. Heading towards where you need to be. We don't know where but somewhere its were your happiness lays at. Of course, when you reach a great destination, it doesn't mean its over. It means you traveled through the hard part. You still have to keep going.
It makes it hard to understand that to keep going is not just a phrase but something that you have to repeat in your mind. A sentence that has a deep meaning because it does end. To keep going on repeat means a simple thing : To Keep Going.
Yes, its hard to do. But lets get one thing straight. Your probably reading this because somewhere in your mind your stuck. Stuck in a thought of what could have been, or what's next or something else. So while your here why not be happy about that YOU already know that you HAVE to keep going. The world may have its moments when its gives you drama but your a strong person to get up, look away and do what needs to be done. No one in this world has control of your happiness. Your the only body that has control of you. If you love yourself enought then you know whats your next step. The next step to help yourself.
Just remember that, when your going...walking through everything...you may relapse. That's ok. Because we all get those extra 2nd chances. Every minute and every tomorrow.
Thanks for reading,
Friday, January 18, 2013
I'm having trouble getting back online to my blog but Thank God I'm here now. As many of you know INSTAGRAM has been the new thing. Pictures, pictures and more pictures. I'm actually on there too and meet wonderful people. I mainly post quotes of every day situations and mostly on my Faith in God. I also have some non-believers whom of course, we can not judge. I treat everyone equal. There has been a certain someone, who will remain nameless, that he unconsciously gave me the idea of writing my stuff to the public. I thought to myself, well yea BLOG IT!! So here I am. Thinking how can I link it or find an easy way to type everything one time. And well I think I prefer to keep ranting here while on iG (instagram) I'll cut to the chase.
... quietly enjoying some KLove Music ...
The other day I was thinking after long talks with my church friends and my family about a certain situation in my life. I won't go into details but I got to a low point (again) that it was hard for me to get up all by myself. So this time, in many many MANY years I opened up to Christian friends. I choosed them because coming from a community we all grew up, one being married and all of us have Faith in God. I know God brought us together for a reason. And sometimes the strong people (later will expalin) need strong friends whom can hold us up. I'm so very happy that they were there when I needed someone.
I fell down into a pit that was total darkness. A pit of unappreciated, unloved, not wanted, pushed away, walking dead as they say. I know we are suppose to protect our hearts, our emotions but sometimes we get tired of covering them. Of not caring. I'm too much caring. I'm that friend that is always there but yet never found one to be there for me. Until those friends. Ok let get back on track.... so I felt a roller coaster of emotions. I know it was noticeable because strangers would ask me if I was ok, That's when it hit me! I feel and look horrible, something has to change.
So I came to realize that whether we faithfully express feelings of care to others friends, their reaction or appreciation shouldn't be taken too harsh. I say that because we are only guilty of what we say and feel, not what other say. FINE!! I was getting mad after the roller coaster of emotions. I accepted the ridicously unexplained answer because I wasn't going to be stuck forever. not again.
THEN I was told that I shouldn't change because someone didn't know how to appreciate the loyalty. Or friendship in this case. Well duhhhhh I should have know. but of course, we humans need to hear it from someone else. I starting thinking that they are right, why would I change the type of person I am because some humans prefer to act ignorant towards others. Now, don't get me wrong, I love my friends. Even the unappreciated one. I will admit, I can't judge them because they did choosed me to stand by them without knowing if I will. And I see that as God working his miracle on them and myself...as I grow. So even after these feelings were getting less, I do appreciate God sending me all my friends. I do have Faith in God that he has something wonderful for me that will make me realize of all the steps I am taking now.
This may seem as a rant all over the place but, I'm tired. Its Friday and I really don't want to think negative. So I'll cut this short.
I'M FEELING MUCH BETTER AND I'M STAYING THE WAY I AM BECAUSE GOD HAS BETTER PLANS THAN THE ONES I HAVE FOR MYSELF.